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     greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7446 Registered: 5-2001  |
TS is working.  She's going to meet us out there later, as the flight comes in midday. I'd whine & wheedle to get her to take tomorrow off, but she's taking Monday afternoon off to take mom to the airport. Baby Bro was going to have the doorman put her luggage in a cab for her. Boys are so dumb. I am being passive aggressive about this project: I am using underlined sub-headings and bullets where She indicated that I should use numbers and letters. No problem putting this out of my head once I leave here. I had another epiphamy the other day about returning to childhood habits, etc. that I'll have to share sometime. But not now. I have some things to underline.  | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7467 Registered: 5-2001 |
I'm processing the whole thing in my head. Picked mom up with no problem. Got her out to my brother's on Friday. Left her there with Baby Bro yesterday afternoon. It was a nice visit; my niece wanted Grammy to carry her. Grammy could only carry her about 15 feet. She brought up where she wants to die; I asked her if she thinks she feels like she is. She isn't sure. She said don't let them bury or cremate her alive. We joked about hitting her over the head with a hammer to make sure. She wants to be home so that she can go sit in her garden and look at her flowers on nice days. I am putting her garden in on Mother's Day weekend. Baby Bro paniced when her realized that we were leaving; he's scared of this frail, little old lady who needs an arm to step up, wore a cashmere sweater, wool cloak and still needed my jacket because it's too cold outside and needs to rest after walking about three blocks. But, this stranger opens her mouth and our mother is inside. I'm so glad she's here. I am going to go clean out my pond and have a good cry. | ||
| Lucy Supporter Username: Lucy Post Number: 3596 Registered: 5-2005  |
A virtual hug and enjoy every moment it really is a beautiful day. | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2694 Registered: 9-2003  |
Clean the hell out of that pond. | ||
| BGS Supporter Username: Bgs Post Number: 968 Registered: 10-2003 |
Ahhhh...Greentree...nothing I can say will make it better for you...please know that I care...and cry cry cry...you have a right to.... God bless you and the GreeneMom and family.... B | ||
| Debby Citizen Username: Debby Post Number: 2284 Registered: 5-2001 |
I'm so glad she's there with you Greene. Enjoy each other. Love, Deb | ||
| Wendy Supporter Username: Wendy Post Number: 2405 Registered: 5-2001 |
ditto, ditto, ditto to what everyone said and what everyone feels. Love Wendy | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2695 Registered: 9-2003 |
How are you this morning? How's that pond? Muck-free? Curt went down from 25 to 12.5 mg Fentanyl this weekend. Long, convoluted story about getting these patches, pharmacy being out of narcotics order forms. Some details and minor struggles I find I don't even bother to detail any more, so much a part of daily life are they. Nearly 1-1/2 years of living under the sign of Cancer (well, more if you count the last round 5 years ago, but pass through that year long siege with comparative ease). Curt bid on, and won, the bid on a brand new iPod for our kid. I would not have bought, but rather saved as a birthday present. Kind of a "I shop therefore I am" so I let it go. By day, he goes online some, is making a model, shops on eBay, makes food, sleeps. On of our kid's friends commented that she has plenty of electronic toys, and indeed she does: an old tv in her room, an X box, a computer, a cell phone, a camera. Soon, an iPod. I was glad to see that she seemed to realize that she was fortunate in that regard, but then I reminded her that one reason she has this "stuff" is that for over a year, her family has done precious little that normal family's do, the things that people take for granted. We go on no vacations, only occasionally have family visitors, once and awhile go out for dinner. Her dad doesn't have, reliably, the strength/energy to go to the school play, her sporting events. He can't carry things; he can hug her. Can't do a whole lot of "dad" things. Don't get me wrong: I'm glad for what we do have. Sometimes, though, it's wearying. I paint, I do projects, I keep my brain busy. Sometimes I pause, paint brush/screwdriver in air, and remember other times when he was the other half of carrying the load. But then I move on, move on, move on because there's little point. I hope he can get off these patches. I hope the insurance will "auth" the PET scan so I can breathe easier. We're kinda in a stasis place, and certainly this stasis is better than some really bad places we've been. Would be nice to see an upward trend. For now, it's like the fish in Finding Nemo: "Keep on swimming, swimming, swimming..." | ||
| Debby Citizen Username: Debby Post Number: 2285 Registered: 5-2001 |
Cyn - You must be absolutely exhausted (when you allow yourself to be, that is). Great news, though, about the 12.5. I remember how bad it was when he was stuck at 50. I was actually thinking about you and Curt this weekend. Was talking to a man at shul who's wife has bone cancer. There's a tumor at the base of her skull, impinging on her trigeminal nerve. "Trigeminal neuralgia is awful" says he, " so she's on an inhuman dose of Fentanyl, just to cope with the pain. The doctors say they never have to use such a high dose." So I guess, "75?" "Try again. But multiply that by 10." The woman has 700 mg Fentanyl patches on her arms to get through the day. I remembered how lethargic and anorexic Curt was, and my Dad (though he was greatly weakened by terminal cancer) at 50 and just looked in awe at his wife sitting there eating and talking. I hope the kid enjoys the ipod. | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7473 Registered: 5-2001 |
Cyn- today I am tired and bipolar. Happy because it was such a good visit & the kids just adore their grammy. Sad because of where we are. Nervous because we have a CAT tomorrow and results on Friday. Ask me again in 10 minutes, I might have one solid emotion. I wish I could help. We always have wine & guac. | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2701 Registered: 9-2003 |
I just need to vent sometimes. I'm really not all that bad at the moment. I hear you on the bipolar. I have days like that. That's how's come so many home projects. I am most sane when my hands and body are busy. Idle hands/minds and all that.... Deb, I've heard of people with that much, mostly online. It's some kick-asc stuff. At least Curt's twitches are greatly reduced, though right now he's suffering a bit from the drop and taking some Percoset. Keep on swimming, swimming.... | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7474 Registered: 5-2001 |
Speaking of swimming, the pond is now filled with water. Which sounds good on the surface, but it's a dry pond. It is supposed to be filled with rocks and two small fountains which recirculate a little water. TS, our friends and I had a discussion about this yesterday. TS and the hubby insisted that the fountains would filter the water and that the gravity drain (meant for rainstorms, etc.) would pull the excess water out. To prove their point, after I scooped out most of the rocks and water (bucket by bucket), he refilled the pond so that it could drain again. As of this morning, it's still full of water. The real issue is that our landscape did a crappy-••• job. I don't get it; I've seen tons of his work, he's done massive, amazing jobs right here in Maplewood. Yet, I can't get a silly little dry pond to drain and the bluestone patio he built for our friends completely came up over the winter. It's like they used Playdough instead of cement. No one can get him on the phone; he hasn't returned any calls in a week. Debby, how are you doing? Lots of ups & downs, I imagine. I hope that the ups are starting to outweigh the downs. TS is on her way to Baby Bro's apartment to take Mom to the airport. I am serious about special food requests; TS can make anything Curt wants. She just loves when I volunteer her like this (she pretends to bitch but loves it).  I know that eating doesn't solve the withdrawal thing, but, hey. I'm Jewish. What did you expect? | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2702 Registered: 9-2003 |
If you find yourselves making lasagna (not with spinach) he loves that (and I never make these days). Anything involving potatos. Banana bread (but not zucchin). Cookies. Cheesecake. He eats a lot of fattening sweets. Plus, if you stopped by, you could see my/our paint job on the living room! Curt's hoping to have energy to plan a pond. Guess who'll be excavating? | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7476 Registered: 5-2001 |
If he wants to practice, he can fix ours! I shall inform ze cook. | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2703 Registered: 9-2003 |
Do you folks know the name of the photography store on HIghland? I have a JPEG I'd like to have printed as a nice picture, possible biggish... | ||
| Wendy Supporter Username: Wendy Post Number: 2408 Registered: 5-2001 |
Photography By William Tomlin 7 Highland Pl Maplewood, NJ Phone: (973) 762-9341 | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7477 Registered: 5-2001 |
Bill is great. He salvaged the prints from a family gathering last year after Maplewood Photo butchered them. In fact, he was able to Photoshop the babies into one where everyone but them was looking at the camera. We received wedding album quality prints back from him. | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7518 Registered: 5-2001 |
Guess who said this: "She said she called me at 5p, but I know she didn't. Do you notice that her memory is getting bad?" A. Mom B. GMF C. All of the above Mom is still being sensitive about her BF whom she hasn't seen yet. I told her that I spoke with BF and that we would be going down to the lake on Sat.or Sun. of Mother's Day. All I got was a "harumph". She was very tired and in a bad mood because she had a CAT yesterday. I don't blame her. I let her rant and rave and then I asked her what the twins did on Monday morning before she left. Talking about them cheered her up. I called GMF (weekly duty). She swore me to secrecy that I wouldn't repeat the dirty joke that she was about to tell me. It contains the words "Bush", "Impeach", "Blow" and "Job". It was pretty funny, actually. Where did you hear this? Well, XX sent it on her computer to YY who printed it and showed it to me. So it's probably from the Internet. Yes. I cut all the names off of it so that no one would know and showed it to two people, but no one else. Don't tell anyone that you heard it from me. It's dirty. You know that if it was on the Internet, that several million people have already seen it, right? Of course. But I don't want anyone to know that I told something that XX probably gave to YY in confidence. Just don't mention me. But that's the funny part. My grandmother told me a joke about a blow job. I don't want your mother to know that I used dirty words. Two hours later.... Mom, is there a reason that GMF doesn't want you to know that she told a joke about a blow job? Hysterical laughter A couple weeks ago, she told me that I had a filthy, dirty mouth. I told her that I learned it from her. Uh oh - I learned to swear like a sailor from my mother. Fight the DNA, FIght the DNA... I took a 12.5 mg Ambien CR last night at 11p. Big mistake. I usually take 5mg IR at 11p and like the fact that it wears off with no hangover by 6a. It was an interesting morning. I forced myself out of bed at 7:30 and managed to make it out the door - pants ironed, shower, hair & make-up- by 8:15a. But I forgot deodorant, and that's gonna bug me all day. I was only 10 minutes late for my 8:30a breakfast meeting with the member of the exec board.  What's really scary is that, in this small 5 person meeting, I was asked a couple strategy questions. Apparently I did rather well, because later, a SVP-typer asked if I would review a presentation before it goes to the board. I wish that I could remember what I said. Of course, I am still "Ambien stoned" and didn't take a Claritan. So, I don't know if it's the Ambien or allergies fogging my head. Either way, I keep having to type over because I'm makig so many errors. Maybe I'll go have a double esresso to add caffeine to my over-drugged body. My boss is out today. I should go take a nap under her desk. | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7519 Registered: 5-2001 |
BTW - I hope that the Ambien wears off soon. My boss, her boss and other execs are out today. The Admin Party next to me is out of control. Otherwise, I am probably going to haul off with a really loud "shut the f*&^ up. | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2720 Registered: 9-2003 |
Happy Birthday to me! It's actually today. 52 big ones. I played hooky (fake sick) yesterday due to (1) work frustration, (2) too many family med appointments (all routine), and (3) je ne sais pas. Most productive. Got Curt's PET, kid's follow up on wrist sprain/bruise/fracture, car wash, Curt hair cut (looks MUCH better), pedicure, assorted errands. Now just have to look like recovering from stomach virus at work. | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7553 Registered: 5-2001 |
Ahhhhh. You beat me to it. I came on to say "Happy Birthday"! In the tradition of TS's family, allow me to sing you the B-day song, invented by her nephew, who burst into spontaneuous song during a family birthday when he was 4: Singin' Happy Birthday Singin Happy Birthday Aii Yii Yiiiiii! Loses something without the melody. But I tried.... | ||
| bets Supporter Username: Bets Post Number: 23057 Registered: 6-2001  |
Happy birthday, CG! It is also my 5th eldest sister's birthday and the scheduled date of my 4th sister's grandson's arrrival (today!). I hope it's a great day for all! | ||
| doulamomma Citizen Username: Doulamomma Post Number: 1386 Registered: 3-2002 |
Happy bday, CG! Hope it is a good one...maybe you will be weak from the, umm, stomach virus & need to come home a bit early? Today is (one week after the fact, but fine, as I'm celebrating all year long!) the bday party Mr.doula is having for me...big 40! He had to check dates with me but other than that, I don't know what to expect - dinner with a few friends I think - I told him of two possible (very differnt) outfits that I'm considering & he said either was fine...not helpful, not helpful at all. I warned him that I was not wearing comfortable shoes, thus would not be into strolling much. | ||
| Lucy Supporter Username: Lucy Post Number: 3618 Registered: 5-2005 |
Happy Birthday Cyn have a wonderful day  cheers! | ||
| BGS Supporter Username: Bgs Post Number: 971 Registered: 10-2003 |
Cyn-May this be the start of the best year of your life!!! In all ways!!! Happy Happy Birthday and Happy Cinco de Maya!!!!! BGS | ||
| Wendy Supporter Username: Wendy Post Number: 2438 Registered: 5-2001 |
Happy Birthday Cynicalgirl! Hope you have a wonderful day and evening and hope it's the continuation of a healthier, happier year for all of you. Perhaps a birthday coffee/drink together over the weekend? | ||
| SoOrLady Citizen Username: Soorlady Post Number: 3289 Registered: 9-2003 |
Happy Birthday Cyn - may the day treat you well and may you have nothing but joy this year! | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2725 Registered: 9-2003 |
Hey, if anyone is looking to give me a birthday present: On Tuesday, May 9, I need someone to pick up Curt from home at a tad before 4 and get him to Overlook Hospital by 4:20. Wait about 1/2 hour (I won't lie, could take 45 minutes) and bring him home. A bunch of mess with CAT scan schedules... | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7573 Registered: 5-2001 |
Third line chemo failed. On to fourth line. Liver spot has doubled since last CAT. Statistically, 2-7 months. Although, we know how much stat have applied to her so far. Mom's oncologist has no sense of humor. He told her that there is a bubble-like spot in her chest; she asked if she should burp more to get rid of it. Instead of chuckling, he gave her an anatomy lesson on why that wouldn't help. When I spoke to him, I asked if we were sure the radiologist had the right films this time. Again, no chuckle. After all this time, does he not remember that this is how Greenetrees deal with not-the-greatest news? Anyway, we talked about her getting another brain scan. He said "the radiation onocologist may be ordering one." I had to tell him that the RO said there was nothing more he could do several weeks ago and considers her discharged back to his service. I asked him if he really thinks there is anything that could be done. He said "gamma knife could help with symptoms." But, I talked to the RO gamma specialist at the Cleveland Clinic the last time, who said the results aren't so good. I know that mom will freak if there is something in her brain and that she will lose what inner strength she has left. I asked him not to order the scan yet. Normal Bro thinks that I should let her decide. I am going to see how she seems next week before I raise it. I hate the thought of demoralizing her. But, I suppose that Normal is right; it's her choice. Mom calls me last night (I'd already spoken with her earlier in the day). It's May 5, right? Answer carefully, she's up to something; do not get caught in the trap Um... yes. And what date is it one week from today? May 12? And what date are you coming in? May 12. OK - that's exactly a week. You promised you'd call her a week ahead and let her know. She's going to get suspicious if I don't make Mother's Day plans soon. Alright, I'll call her. I'm telling her that we're going out for Mother's Day on Saturday evening. Are you sure we shouldn't take her to the lake on Sunday? We're spending the day at BF's lake house. The BF GMF hates. GMF would make our day miserable. She wouldn't want to leave until noon and then would want to go home after 2 hours. On top of being a bitch Oh, hell no. She is not going to the lake with us. I told you that. We're going to have a nice day. Well, then, we can have her over for pizza on Friday night. Our flight gets in at 4p No. I always tell her our flight doesn't come in until after 9p. Mom, why do you do this? She makes you nuts, you bitch about her and then you get an attack of the guilts and feel like we should pay more attention to her. I don't know. If you keep this up, I'm going to get your head examined. He, he. Whoops. Didn't mean to say that..... Anyway, Mom may wrestle with her demons about this woman, but I have a looooong memory. And, at the end of the day, am known for being a steel-hearted bitch when someone pushes me over the edge. I'll give you 10 times as much rope as anyone else will; but once the rope is gone, I don't look back. Oh, BF (the one mom was convinced didn't want to be around her anymore) took her to the appointment yesterday. They talked it out and everything is fine between them. I'm very glad about that. Off to set up the back yard for the summer. | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2728 Registered: 9-2003 |
I'll be thinking of you today, greenetree. I'll be doing similar out back, and planting some annuals. I guess Normal is right about keeping things normal, i.e. letting her decide and so on. Maybe, too, radically altering the way she does the relationship with her mother would signal some kinda end of days state that wouldn't be good for her??? Glad to hear that she and the BF are in a better place. On my front, whether cuz of my birthday or accumulated stress I just feel yuck about this week's visit to the onco, post PET and CAT etc. I keep going is it some kinda prescient forewarning that results will not be good? Is it just general? In any case, all I can do for now is plant annuals. I really want clean results, really, really, really. That's all I want for my birthday. Don't know if I'll get it. Don't know if I'll be reading this next Thursday going "How did I know it would be bad news?" | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7578 Registered: 5-2001 |
I think that it's normal to fear and feel the worst deep, deep down. Maybe some subconcious way of trying not to get a nasty surprise? I truly believe that the person with the illness can feel the changes. If Curt doesn't feel it, it probably isn't happening. This past January, I was sure mom didn't have but a few weeks left. But, she said "I don't feel like I'm dying." And she didn't die. I know it's of small comfort because it's only 4 months later, but given what she's got, still kind of amazing. | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2730 Registered: 9-2003 |
You're right as always. I think I'm just pooped! Plus, I sorta wish Curt were like those invisible man models, so we could just see everything all of the time. Turn on the switch, and he's a laser light show! | ||
| Lucy Supporter Username: Lucy Post Number: 3630 Registered: 5-2005 |
The strength you both show is beyond any words I can say. Your in my thoughts and prayers every day may you and yours be blessed with only good Karma. | ||
| Wendy Supporter Username: Wendy Post Number: 2446 Registered: 5-2001 |
I'll give an amen to that Lucy. | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2732 Registered: 9-2003 |
Hey, thanks guys. I did flower therapy today. Went out and bought a bunch of annuals, and made mud pies and planted same. I should tell y'all I had a pretty good birthday. Curt wasn't feeling too hot, but we all went to Outback Steakhouse, where we did not fight and we all ate. Both Curt and my sister ordered me some flowers from McClintock's (I love that place, I love the lady who owns it, who always gives my kid a bloom all dressed up with a blow). I am a flowers junkie. I am easy -- flowers, chocolate and champagne. I have never wrapped anyone's head around the bend with being a difficult gift-ee. And, I can love cheap versions of all 3 (7-11 flowers, Hershey bar and Asti). So, I feel pretty good for getting good and muddy and sweaty. Curt's suffering some, but it seems to be withdrawl. He'd bounced around a bit during a blockage (details not worth it). So, he's in the recliner in a polartec robe, sweats and a big blankie drinking tea whereas I am a muddy sweaty mess. I am deeply, deeply touched today. Greenetree thought of me ... she was on her way to the toxic waste dump. Wanted to know if I had any that needed moved. As it happens, I do but buried to deeply in the garage. And then there's my brain! Thanks, kiddo. It was good to see you. Hope you had a successful trip. | ||
| villagenative Citizen Username: Villagenative Post Number: 184 Registered: 5-2001 |
I've been banned from Maplewood Online under my name Bets. Because I objected to S.O.D.A. being a huge DICK. Let's see whether this disappears villagenative Dave - what the flock? Why??? | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7598 Registered: 5-2001 |
Either I'm extra crotchety today or there is a higher concentration of the usual know-it-all blow-hard posters online than usual. One is "disappointed" that I, gasp, had an opinion and am not ready to jump on a lynching bandwagon. Another prides herself on being rude and wants to blame others. Another.... Oh, hell. Forget it. Mom is feeling rather ornery today. I called earlier; she's cleaning out closets and giving away her larger-sized shorts. What size? asks I. Why? Are you still wearing shorts? Is there a reason you are inferring that I shouldn't be? Having a bit of trouble with the B-day this year; I'm scared of old people and I'm marching there myself...... Laughs. Well. No. I don't know. If it makes you feel better, I don't wear short skirts anymore. Saturday's conversation requires back story. When GMF's mother died in 1974 (mom's grandmother, my great), she left a strand of pearls with a diamond clasp for my mother. Family lore has it that GMF removed the diamond clasp and substituted it with a regular clasp, telling mom "you are too young for this". Mom was 33, divorced and had 4 children. But I digress...... Mom has never gotten over the diamond. She wants it back. Has been talking about it for years. On and on and on. So, in her new mode of "wear it now, why save it, she must have the clasp. She is going to call GMF and demand her diamond. We join our heroine in a conversation with her daughter, as she prepares for battle with the Dragon Lady.............. I told her that I want my diamond clasp; I'm old enough for it. What did she say? She doesn't remember that Grandma said I should have it and it's on her double strand of pearls and what would hold her pearls together? Does she even wear them anymore? She made a big production of telling me that she doesn't go to events anymore. No. Anyway, I told her that Auntie H (GMF's sister; the one who she barely speaks to; they boycotted each others' husbands funeral) has a letter from Grandma with the disposition of property and that I can get her a copy. What did she say? She harrumphed. But, I'm going to get that diamond. Mom, I know what you are up to. What are you talking about? You figure that however much time is left, you are going to give her a heart attack so that you can inherit stuff, even if for a little while. No. Well. Huh. Maybe. Good-bye, Mom. Yesterday, the phone rings.... I was wrong. About what? She gave it up. Said she'll bring it to dinner on Saturday. I'm sorry that you won't have anything to fight with her about. I know how much you were looking forward to that. We'll see if GMF actually brings the diamond.......... | ||
| SoOrLady Citizen Username: Soorlady Post Number: 3294 Registered: 9-2003 |
You need to fein ignorance of this whole transaction my dear. If your mother's plot to kill her off first doesn't work, GMF will be demanding it back from you. }What?, why no, I'm sure that clasp has always been on that necklace.." | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7600 Registered: 5-2001 |
Nah - I'm the only thing standing between her and some state-run, broken down nursing home (in her mind). She's rather nice to me, actually. I usually try to stay out of these things (and do refuse to "tell her I said...", but I am getting a bit of a kick out of this one for some reason. Although, it would solve lots of problems if mom's plan works......... How twisted is that? | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2743 Registered: 9-2003 |
Pretty twisted ... but fun to think about. I don't know how you tolerate her, but you do (and you do it well, for the rest of our amusement). Sittin' at the 'puter waiting for the Benadryl to kick in. Ate a pot pie, but gotta go to Underhill and watch my kid's lacrosse team shortly. Boy, am I not in the mood to commune with grass, etc. But, needs must and the mommy drives. I feel a little whiney. One of the things that sux about having a spouse with a Major Medical Problem is you do get to feeling like you can't ever be sick or physically out of it yourself. He's in the recliner, dealing with Fentanyl withdrawal. Dealing with the aftermath of a blockage yesterday (a quite intense scene not worth detailing, much swearing, my tears, etc). If I were in a more normal situation, like a couple of years ago, I could come home sniffly itchy and get a little sympathy, maybe a little care. But, no-o-o-o. I must soldier on. I hate that. Has to be the rare coincidence of him feeling more OK and me feeling world class lousy. Dumb, but one of those little things I miss. Got him a taxi service for tomorrow, and will have to call him and remind because he is The Suffering One right now. No doubt hear about how it go him there early, etc. He has a right, he feels miserable. I wouldn't want to be him. I can't imagine feeling that crappy most of the time. But being me ain't none to great either just now. Oh well. |
