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     Soda Supporter Username: Soda Post Number: 3824 Registered: 5-2001  |
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| Scully Citizen Username: Scully Post Number: 347 Registered: 8-2005 |
Terrific! | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1684 Registered: 10-2003 |
I had to fill out forms in a doctor's office today which must have been for the first time in my new life because I came across the request: Emergency Contact and the usual name didn't belong. Obviously. I put down my cat sitter's contact info. Obviously. | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1686 Registered: 10-2003 |
Eleven straight days of migraines and killer headaches, eleven days of sobs because there was no escape, eleven days of injections and ice packs and cokes and aspirins and doctors, eleven days of going to work and writing my term papers so tightly wound from the pain I would twitch. I begged my doctor to drill some holes in my skull to relieve the pressure and told him if he would kindly gauge out my eyes I wouldn't ask for more. But he wouldn't and promised he'd get rid of the pain and yesterday he told me when some treatments don't work it still helps us move towards a cure, and he peeled back the wrapper and gave me a pill and said this one and that one together should help. Today I can gloat to the world: I have a little headache. Just a plain old boring, mundane headache. My blood pressure has finally made it back down to double digits and my head just might not explode and the pain in my chest from getting worked up is calming because I'm calming too. Everything's coming up now and I can't keep it inside. I can't stop crying. I am not crying because my skin is so hot or that the neurologist says I have an ear infection. I am crying because I can't believe how fortunate I am that my head isn't killing me for the first time in eleven days. | ||
| MeAndTheBoys Citizen Username: Meandtheboys Post Number: 3617 Registered: 12-2004  |
Thank goodness, las. Glad to hear the good news about your head and your BP. So nice to run in to you and ess at Leo Nails! Is that a usual thing on that day for you guys? Will I run in to you there again, at that time on that day? | ||
| Calliope Citizen Username: Calliope Post Number: 157 Registered: 3-2006  |
Las, I am grateful that these terrible headaches and their ripple effect are over. So enervating,so frightening, and thankfully, gone. YOU ARE BACK! Do something beautiful for yourself,in thanksgiving for this transformation. You certainly deserve it. Slainte, Calli | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1690 Registered: 10-2003 |
Thank you, Ladies! The headaches suck, but out of this ordeal I've earned my very own Blood Pressure Machine!!! (No, I don't take it a hundred times a day...that would be plain obs- okay, I do measure it a hundred times a day.) (And yes, I ask each person who enters my home if they want theirs measured.) (They all say yes.) (I'm keeping a log of visitors' bps!) Still don't know what happened to cause the high BP/migraine episode, but so long as my head is calming down that is all I care about. This was the first time since him left that I wished I was dead. | ||
| bets Supporter Username: Bets Post Number: 22999 Registered: 6-2001  |
Please don't ever, ever say that. I have lost beloved family and friends to suicide. I hope it's not my friendship that is spurring your thoughts of death. I know I have that effect but am trying (in therapy) to make myself better. I promise I won't make you want to kill yourself anymore! I know you were being funny and stuff, but please! It hurts. Please don't. Stay! | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1691 Registered: 10-2003 |
I'm sorry, kitten! My head was just killing me for so long I couldn't take it. I've marveled how through this entire year I never wanted to die, yet those headaches were pushing me over the edge. But they didn't. One of my greatest lifetime accomplishments was writing a term paper with a migraine. (Now let's see the grade...!) | ||
| bets Supporter Username: Bets Post Number: 23003 Registered: 6-2001 |
It is so hard to live life sometimes. The hits are hard and frequent. Recognize that and abandon all expectation. If you live a good and kind life then life will be kind and good. I can't believe it took me so long to figure this out. I know I've encouraged you to stay in school but I would aspire to a greater accomplishment: life! It's depressing and frustrating and maddening. You'll love it! | ||
| Lucy Supporter Username: Lucy Post Number: 3594 Registered: 5-2005  |
Bets you nailed it! Well said  | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1703 Registered: 10-2003 |
A few weeks ago when I blew off my class and feigned to have had a migraine, I said then and there it would come back to haunt me I should never have made up that lie. Then two days ago when I gloated herein that for the moment my migraine was gone I should have bitten my tongue and kept it inside it was way too early to gloat. Then last night came and the headache was there and I fell asleep for an hour or so then woke with a start it hurt more than hell and I knew something just wasn't right. I lay there in bed with my Sydney-cat purring while crying and plotting my plan, I brushed my teeth then I peed then I filled up the cat bowls with food and with water and drove myself to ER. My eyes didn't hurt I saw perfectly clear and I made it to the hospital by 2:36 am which is a time I note for that was the time I crashed my car on the parking gate. I told the lady inside there's something wrong with my head and she asked if it was a migraine I said no this is different and she brought me inside and helped me lay on a bed. Then a nurse came in and took all my symptoms and took my BP which was high and she took it twice more and told me it tends to get high when one has a migraine. This is not a migraine this is something else I announced she said the doctor will be in soon and of course when he came he heard I had a migraine and I just could not say a word. I don't understand how people don't listen I showed him the path of my pain how it starts on the top and ends on my neck and I see perfectly fine it's my head. A drug was injected barely a moment had passed and my eyes were pulled shut and my head it was numbing I started crying it dulled the pain. I will never ever ever forget what it felt like for that pain to be numbed and the warmth of the shot to take over my brain and put weight on my chest and heat in my head and make it all better in just half a breath. At some point this morning they woke me to say the CT was fine go home. And I was still fogged but I drove myself home and the cats were still sound asleep, my alarm was beeping (and had been for hours) and I crawled into bed and slept. And when I woke up I thought of my choice, the one I made all by myself in the dark of the night to behave like a big girl and get myself help for my head. I didn't doubt that the pain was real or serious enough to seek help, and didn't need someone to encourage me on or drive me or hold my hand. For the rest of today I have these really neet pills that fog the pain and fog my mind and fog the world I see and tomorrow I have to sober up and visit my two new doctors who will get rid of the headaches and high blood pressure so I can get back to my life. I have taken hiatus from my last term paper. | ||
| mem Citizen Username: Mem Post Number: 6122 Registered: 5-2001  |
Las, I am so glad the CT was OK. They better cure this thing quick - we need to get going with our Get Rich Quick Scheme so I can quit my job before summer. Pain be gone - we're all rooting for you my friend! | ||
| Calliope Citizen Username: Calliope Post Number: 169 Registered: 3-2006 |
And when I woke up I thought of my choice, the one I made all by myself in the dark of the night to behave like a big girl and get myself help for my head. I didn't doubt that the pain was real or serious enough to seek help, and didn't need someone to encourage me on or drive me or hold my hand. I'm really proud of you. I hope that they can get to the bottom of this and you will never have to make a choice like that again. But now you know you can ,if you have to. Keeping good thoughts, Calli | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1705 Registered: 10-2003 |
Thank you, Dear Mem! It turns out my head at this moment's okay thanks to my Happy Percoset Pills and though yesterday my neurologist said the head pain was from the BP and the BP doctor said it was all from my head, they both seem to be on one page today and the consensus is I had a migraine two weeks ago that caused my BP to shoot up and that it was a coincidence I had an annual exam with my GYN who wouldn't let the high BP slide (yet I was allowing the migraine to slide...go figure). I've had a few readings in the past day and a half where the BP's come down quite a bit and my headache is fogged from Happy Percoset Pills and my neurologist chose all by himself to draft a note to my professor asking for an extension on my last paper due. What an awesome neurologist. The irony is him used to accuse me of having high blood pressure because years ago when I started migraine injections I'd see the doctor who'd take my BP and inevitably it would be high. That's what happens when you get a migraine. Yet my beloved would hear the numbers and shake his head side to side and remind me to lose weight and exercise more and maybe I shouldn't eat that. My doctor is sure the BP went up from the migraine two weeks ago and stayed so high for the subesequent ones with a lasting result that for the rest of my life when the migraines take hold I have to monitor and treat the BP. And both doctors surmise that I've got some nerve damage from when that first migraine hit and that's what I'm feeling why I'm getting more headaches but we'll know for sure in a day. I'm going to play with Happy Percoset Pills. I have no desire to drink with these headaches - but I have to do something to alter my reality... | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1706 Registered: 10-2003 |
And thank you dear Calli! | ||
| mjh Supporter Username: Mjh Post Number: 492 Registered: 5-2001 |
Las, I PL'd you to ask about the neurologist. I need one and would love a recommendation. Thank you, MJ | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1707 Registered: 10-2003 |
I wrote you back MJ. I like my neurologist and if he says the radiologist is over zealous in his interpretation of my film than I'm going to believe him. Apparently this morning's MRI was misread so I have to head out for a spinal tap in a bit to prove my neurologist right and the radiologist wrong. It's a bit scary because he used words I don't know but I'm not even going to look those words up since they were probably used in error. | ||
| kriss Citizen Username: Kriss Post Number: 300 Registered: 6-2001 |
Las, I just PL'd you. Kris | ||
| greenetree Supporter Username: Greenetree Post Number: 7527 Registered: 5-2001  |
Try not to worry too much. I went thru the same thing a couple months back. Radiologists like to be scary. Better to freak you out of your mind than to not mention something that is a 1,000,000 to 1 shot and risk a lawsuit, right? Stress does nasty, nasty things, as you & I well know. It's a pretty good likelihood that if it were some major life-threatening thing, you would have keeled over by now. | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1708 Registered: 10-2003 |
Kriss, I got your email - writing you back! This morning as I was leaving the MRI I looked on the monitor and asked if what I was looking at should have been symmetrical. The tech said he couldn't talk to me about it. And now I must wait until Friday for the spinal tap. I'm a bit nervous. I'm not a radiologist (yet, oh the irony: him's father was) but I do know I was only seeing one of something and there should have been two and the neurologist told me his concerns and it all seems to make sense. So I've got a Thursday coming up with nothing on the calendar. I really shouldn't sleep the day, I should make an effort to accomplish a task after seven days of lethargy. I'm not in a place to work on my paper and I'm not in a place to knit. Maybe I will clean something. | ||
| Pippi Supporter Username: Pippi Post Number: 2155 Registered: 8-2003  |
my house needs cleaning. sorry I took the key back from you....  | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1709 Registered: 10-2003 |
 Apparently my face needs cleaning, too. Ess dropped off a facial regime sure to prevent any further eruptions on my chin. | ||
| Pippi Supporter Username: Pippi Post Number: 2156 Registered: 8-2003 |
was it from sephora? | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1710 Registered: 10-2003 |
The acne regimen is from TV I think, but Ess is heading to Sephora later to pick up a masque she guarantees will dry out everything the polychlorinated biphenyl (you know, 'PCB' ) didn't burn off. My skin didn't look this bad when I was a teenager. But my nails have never looked better, thanks to you sweet Pippi! | ||
| ess Citizen Username: Ess Post Number: 1892 Registered: 11-2001  |
Actually, the masque is Estee Lauder. It works wonders. (Btw, Las, I picked it up and will deliver it manana. It was less expensive than I thought.) The acne regimen is Proactiv. Jessica Simpson swears by it. It is very effective, but can be very drying at first. You might want to find a nice oil-free moisturizer. The nails do look absolutely lovely. | ||
| MeAndTheBoys Citizen Username: Meandtheboys Post Number: 3663 Registered: 12-2004 |
I too love Proactive, and spoke to you about it. You might start by just using it in the morning, see how your skin does and then go to 2x a day. Silly how we tend to convince ourselves we should be done with the whole acne mess once we're all grown up! Oh, and BTW, nothing in the human body is symmetrical, no matter how much it seems to be so. | ||
| Virtual It Girl Citizen Username: Shh Post Number: 4362 Registered: 5-2001 |
Kiehl's makes a great oil-free moisturizer that I love. | ||
| ess Citizen Username: Ess Post Number: 1893 Registered: 11-2001 |
VIG - Is it also an anti-aging product? Does it have sunscreen? I am forever in search of a moisturizer that does it all. | ||
| Virtual It Girl Citizen Username: Shh Post Number: 4364 Registered: 5-2001 |
Ess, me too! The one I am referring to is not, but it's a great lightweight moisturizer to have in your arsenal. I think it's called the sodium PCA (yes, checked the site, it is) for moisturizer with sun-protection with anti-aging, try Abyssine Lotion SPF 15 Dry Normal to Dry Normal Normal to Oily * Advanced, Restorative Formula * Help diminish effects of aging * UVA/UVB protection I use this one too and it doesn't cause breakouts for me. Now my new thing is primer. I tried one and it makes makeup/skin look much smoother. So, cleanse, toner, moisture, sunscreen, primer, conceal, powder, blush and occasionally bronzer. This is getting way too complicated, and that's before mascara, eyeshadow and lip gloss!  | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1711 Registered: 10-2003 |
You people are sick! I've been using Napalm rubs and soaps and lotions and toners on my face non-stop since yesterday. My face is on fire. My face is so dry it hurts to smile or raise my brows. Now I've got dry, red cysts, tumors, zits and pustules (as opposed to just normal red cysts, tumors, zits and pustules). I am revolting. Me, I wasn't ignoring your Proactiv recommendation that day, I just happened to have clear skin when you told me about these prodcuts so it didn't register. VIG and Ess: you are wierd. | ||
| ess Citizen Username: Ess Post Number: 1894 Registered: 11-2001 |
Oh yeah, I have the Abyssine eye cream. It's nice. Haven't used primer yet, but I do use Estee Lauder's Perfectionist everyday, after the toner and before the moisturizer. What a project it is to get ready every day!!!!!!!!!!! | ||
| Virtual It Girl Citizen Username: Shh Post Number: 4368 Registered: 5-2001 |
Las, you have to moisturize now. Be kind to your skin! Get thee to a dermatologist! Ess, what is perfectionist? Any why do you use it BEFORE moisturizer? (Being lazy, I suppose I could just check it out online) | ||
| MeAndTheBoys Citizen Username: Meandtheboys Post Number: 3664 Registered: 12-2004 |
las, walk across the street to Bio Skin care and ask them to mix you up a moisturizer for your poor, poor face. I get mine from them. Ecran w/sunscreen. Stress really sucks. | ||
| MeAndTheBoys Citizen Username: Meandtheboys Post Number: 3665 Registered: 12-2004 |
Better still, while you're there getting some moisturizer, make an appointment to get yourself a facial. Relax and refresh you spirit and your skin. You've had a trying couple of weeks, I say you deserve it! | ||
| ess Citizen Username: Ess Post Number: 1895 Registered: 11-2001 |
Las - moisturize, moisturize, moisturize! VIG - Perfectionist is an anti-wrinkle serum, not a moisturizer. Its purpose is to diminish the signs of aging. Not sure what it really does, but I know when I put it on, my skin is silky smooth. And it doesn't look too bad for a woman of my soon-to-be advanced age. Hmm, maybe Las has a point. | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1713 Registered: 10-2003 |
Bio Skin - across the street. I will make that my new home. Thank you, Me. My sister (the other one) says all the pressure in my head is pushing zits out my chin. Makes sense to me. I'm going to add bad skin to my list of desirable traights: Lots of cats; knits a lot; tumultuous complexion. We're* leaving for the hospital in a bit. *me, my zits | ||
| Cynicalgirl Citizen Username: Cynicalgirl Post Number: 2723 Registered: 9-2003  |
Could it be new medicines doing this number? Good luck at the hospital, las. If it's Overlook, all access/parking patters are a bit weird now as they are renovating. Be warned! And let us know how you are... | ||
| las Citizen Username: Las Post Number: 1715 Registered: 10-2003 |
The spinal tap showed my pressure is high but sill within the range of normal. Ess suggests I can satisfy my hypochondria by considering it to be on the low-end of abnormal. (Which, of course, I shall do.) It was good having ess there yesterday. Even better than having my beloved. I didn't feel like I was pulling her away from something else (even though I was) and I think the best part of having her was when she used the nurse's sink to rinse her snow peas. I would have done the same. Spinal taps leave you with a killer headache. They kept warning me but I din't care because of the headaches I've had. Now I care. | ||
| ess Citizen Username: Ess Post Number: 1903 Registered: 11-2001 |
Actually, ess was exactly where she was supposed to be. So there. Besides, there was a "gourmet coffee" machine in the waiting area. |
